Do not know why I continue trusting you.
Fail to recall when was the last time that you have not betrayed me and shattered my trust.
Whenever I have a date with you, for hours you do not turn up. I sit there sipping numerous cups of coffee trying to remain calm but tears do drop and people do look at me wondering disaster and spreading pity. My pride in you gives me belief you will turn up. It gives me strength to face embarrassment and nasty looks. I want to curse and complain but simply cannot convince myself to do it.
I do not give up waiting for you for when I see you, all my suffering is forgotten.
My eyes light up. I have a sigh of relief.
I have become a laughing stock for friends and family who have encouraged me to look beyond you.
At times when I have, only an experience of bliss has awaited me. Guilt however has compelled me to return and apologise to you. In return you had promised to mend ways.
But alas! Your promises like you are false.
Even when you turn up, your performance is insulting. You are out to humiliate me. I feel dejected and frustrated. Feel like walking out on you but I cannot for you make sure that all doors of exit are locked. You make sure that whatever time I spend with you, my patience is tested and my resilience experimented.
So why do I still trust you. I am a fool. Hope against hope, despair against despair. I simply cannot forget you. I feel so helpless.
You are my first choice. How can I forget you? With you are associated joyous memories of moments unforgettable. You were not always like this but your changing fortunes have made you nasty.
You have become overburdened and exhausted, forced to comply with the wishes of your unfaithful friends. I know you want to be faithful and sincere but the cruel demands of time and your deteriorating health has taken a toll on you.
Deprived of glory and grace, no one to take care, you have become ugly and fat but for me you are still charming.
Today again I have listened to my heart and trusted you.
Today again you have betrayed my trust. Today again you have ruined my day.
For this betrayal I will not forgive you.
Perhaps PIA this is the last time I have trusted you.