Was seeing the German movie Circles inspired by a true event. My tears did not stop for a minute.
The tragedy shown on screen was tears inducing, but more was the empathy I could have with the characters of the movie.
The onlookers! The one who are sentenced to a life term of remorse and repentance, unbearable than the one who was the victim.
Set against the happenings in Bosnia in the nineties, it is the story of people who looked by as a young man was killed as he tried to save the life of another young man. It is the story of a father who is at loss to understand what positive change did the killing of his son bring or was it in vain.
As he rightly says if you throw a stone in the water, even it creates circles. Does a good deed not create any circles?
For me, however it is the story of the friend of the victim and of the onlookers who stood watching a young man being killed.
Should they have done something? Could they have stopped the brutal killing of the young man? In their place what would I have done?
Exactly what they did!
Turned their faces away or looked on with disbelief, dismay and dejection. Doom too for they were being sentenced to a life at times unbearable than the few minutes\hours suffering of the victim. The victim leaves the world, they continue to live.
Each day is hell! Each day is a punishment. Living becomes an ordeal. You try to live, you try to immerse yourself in millions of wonders of the world but everytime you see your face in the mirror. You are the culprit. You keep on running away from yourself. To the world you maybe the bravest person. In your eyes you are a coward.
The onlookers in the movie were like many of us. As we continue to pursue individual brilliance, our senses have become immune to suffering. Lives lost in blasts and violence move us only for a minute. Maybe it moves us, it hurts us for more than a minute but we pretend as if nothing has happened.
To the world, we smile but the pain within does not let us genuinely smile. The tears of remorse that are shed in loneliness do not let nights pass by, making days loaded with exhaustion.
Yet we live apparently physically fit yet emotionally drained. We pray for the suffering to end, to have peace and tranquillity but in vain!
If you have time, watch Circles.